In the last month, we have had the misfortune of having things around the house messing up. First the computer transfer thingy...now that it works, the monitor doesn't! The car messed up while we were in Tyler for Steve & Father-in-law's half marathon. I have so many things to post, but no way to get the pictures onto the computer!!! Ahhhh! Frustrating! Anyway, I guess I will continue to post random things until we get our computer thing working.
I will start posting about my moods. Lately, I have been feeling kinda weird. I don't know how to explain it. I've just been out of sorts. One day I feel super happy, the next day I feel like I just don't want to talk to anyone. I guess one of the reasons is that while I do like SA, I feel like this is such a transitional part of our lives that I can't seem to just feel settled. I long to go back to Dallas. I just wish I had that feeling of knowing that we are here and we will be here, and so I must live my life accordingly. But I don't. I constantly call my mom, or my friends in Dallas. I imagine where we could live. I just don't feel like SA is our home.
I think it's the holidays. Or that my neighbor (tear) will most likely be moving soon. I don't know. I know that we have 1.5 years left and that by the way time is flying, we will be packing up before we know it. But that's just it. If I knew that we were to stay here, then I would just accept it and live life. I don't know. I just really wish that I could be happy. And then I think of how ungrateful that sounds! Anyway, I also think I'm getting sick :( soooo, the only thing I have to look fw to is Christmas.
Also, I turn 25 this year! I know that could be old or young depending on how you look at it. To me it's just weird! I have 1 month and change to reach some of the goals I promised myself I would do before turning 25. Sadly, the going to Vegas is a NO-GO! Riding a roller coaster is one of those, and I really feel I might not do that either because I know I would most likely chicken out at the last minute!
OK, enough about my moods. Tell me, at what age did you start to feel old?
Monday, October 20, 2008
The NO picture post!
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This ward is hard because it's constantly changing. Our lives are hard because we are in limbo. Sometimes just getting out and participating and making friends, even when we don't feel like it, can help us overcome those feelings. They say the grass is always greener on the other side; it helps to not focus on the green grass on the other side, but rather the grass where we're standing.
As for feeling old . . . hun, you're young! :) Believe me; I'm 30+. I started feeling old sophomore year of college when I HAD to go to be before midnight or else I didn't function well. There are always things here and there that make me feel old, but the things that come with age - wisdom, maturity, insight, knowledge, security with who I am, security in my marriage - which I've learned to love and appreciate, and because of that I love being 31!! Plus I still feel young inside so the fact that I'm getting older doesn't bother me because I still feel young. Anyways, I'll stop rambling. Hope this helps!
College is such a tough time when you don't have everything settled, and you have so much still up in the air. I'm sorry you've been having a hard time lately, but I have to say that I would be TERRIBLY SAD if you didn't live in SA! I'm really going to miss you when Steve is done with school and you guys move.
I think I started feeling old as soon as I became a Mom and lost my mind! Love ya, Chrissy
This year (27) felt particularly old because it's so close to 30. In actuality I think every birthday prompts me to say, “I feel so old.” I swear one of these days while I’m out shopping I will throw anything into my cart that has the words “anti-aging” on it.
Wow, You have great friends with great advice! I am so sorry that you are feeling so blah. People always say that you will look back on the college years and find that they were really fun, even with all the worries. I agree. They were hard - especially being poor and having babies to deal with alone (so been there)...but your body and mind are young (being able to move without pain somewhere is a great blessing), you're creative, and you get to make so many new friends.
As I have gotten older, I look back more and more and think, Wow - I wish I had lived more in that moment instead of waiting for the next (whatever) when I will be so much happier. I feel this especially strong in watching young mothers get so frustrated with young children. I know it is hard, and it doesn't feel like it, but the time goes by so fast. It won't be all that long before they get that attitude of "go away and leave me alone."
I really felt old with the last birthday -- 50! Wow! It seems like such a BIG number!!! It's interesting that your brain still feels like a "mature" 25, but your body sooo isn't... This has been the only really troubling birthday I have had. Wow - what a big nuimber!
I hope you have a brighter day today! Kiss the babies for Grandpa and me-
We love you,
Mom G
I got to that point when I had 2 kids!
Don't be sad that we're moving away!! lol jk, I know you are talking about the Kunz. I talked to her about that. most likely, they'll just stick it out here still the summer when they find out where they're going, if school or what. But I know, totally sad! I don't want her to move before we do!
I feel that way too about here and the ward. I think it's just that time of year and eveyrone is feeling antsy. Cheer up! We should get together in the mornings and have the kids play because I'm too home bound!
I'm sorry you are feeling sad. All things, good and bad, pass in time so we have to savor the good and not waste energy on the bad. I know it's hard to embrace the moment but Steve's Mom (Mrs. Gibbons! Holla!) is right-you have to live in the moment because it's all so fleeting.
Now, go find the biggest, scariest, craziest roller coaster you can and ride that thing until you forget why you were scared in the first place!
Glad to hear I am not the only one! Lets face it, with all the joy that comes with life, there are a lot of heartaches and pains to bare. There is never a good answer only comfort in knowing that "this too shall pass." If you ever need anything let me know.
You know, I used to stress about getting older and leaving my 20's - now I realize that life just keeps getting better and better! You start to get less ego-centric and take a step back and realize that life is awesome at every stage - right? 35 is great! We can't wait to have you back in Dallas!
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