Thankful

Today was a productive day. I went to one of my friends baby shower tonight, and it was good seeing some old friends from our Dallas ward. It's crazy how fast time has passed! I remember having baby play dates with one of the girls at the party, when Matthew was a little butterball! Things have definitely changed here! I have realized how much San Antonio feels like home to me! I often complain, about SA not feeling like we belong and what not, but I think it's more that Steve is working so hard and he's schedule is not conducive to family life, that it often feels very temporary. Like any day now, he's going to all of the sudden have a 9-5 schedule.... NOT! Steve has been working HARD here. Too hard, actually. I feel he deserves to sleep for a week! seriously! He sleeps about 3 hours every day. We really appreciate how much he does for our little family. After the baby shower, one of my good friends and I went to McDonald's to catch up a little bit. She works during the day, and I really haven't had a chance to visit with her, so it was a nice little break. I don't know why I have felt very melancholic lately, but while Shanna and I sat there talking, I realized that it might be a LONG time before we get to do this again. It also hit me that time is flying by sooo very fast, that I wish I could just stop time for just a moment and hug my little ones tightly. Shanna reminded me ( in her funny doom voice) that its a "sign of the times" to have the days go by so fast. And it really is true! While being here, Matthew has lost two teeth, Olivia seems to keep getting taller, and my little babies are babies no more! It really has opened my eyes to see how important it is for me to be staying at home. I often feel, like I don't do much, or get worried that we are in so much debt that I should just get out and look for a job! And while all of these things are valid worries, I realized that I won't get a second chance with my kids, and that if I want them to be with our family in the eternities, it is my job and responsibility to teach them the way. I love my kids with all my heart, and I know Steve does too. I know Steve works hard for our future and also know that Heavenly Father has provided a way for me to stay home, and to have the opportunity to be a teacher to our children. And for that, I'm THANKFUL. What are you thankful for today?

Jazmin

P.S
I also realized, that I complain too much!