Life so far...and some DEEP thoughts

Things have been good in the Gibbons household. We are enjoying life here in the big D and love to be able to see family ALL THE TIME! Our ward is really amazing too. I have never felt so included in things so fast before! its been great. Steve has been home a lot which is really nice, but he just started a difficult rotation, so I might be eating my words in a week! So, far adjusting has been super easy, I feel that I actually never adjusted to SA which is kind of sad if I really think about it, so I just don't. HA! I have noticed several things in the time we moved. I feel like just this year I figured out who I really am. It's deep to think that, but I'm OK with not being perfect. Growing up I always thought that to be accepted in my family I had to be perfect. Too many details as to why I came down with that conclusion, but I did and I have always struggled with being this ideal. What's perfect you may ask? Well, my definition of "perfect" has changed as I have grown. When I was 5 years old being perfect meant, having all my pencils sharpened, by backpack all neat and clean, oh, and having long hair. All the "pretty girls" had long hair. Here is the problem. My hair grew really slow, I was never neat, and therefore I wasn't perfect. When I was 12 years old perfect meant, having a beautiful clean room, perfect grades and perfect handwriting. I never actually had a room growing up, my grades where not awesome and my handwriting until this day doesn't look look it was pulled out of the printer.

So in every way possible I was FAR from being "perfect." Fast fw to the present. I thought just last year that being this impossible ideal was to be organized, super clean and neat (i find a trend here) and having to do all these things with your kids. Well, as soon as I moved I realized a couple of things.

1st- I put too much pressure on my self.
2nd- My kids love me if we do crafts or not. They just want ME.
3rd- I'm was created in God's image, therefore I have always been PERFECT. Because he is, and I'm his daughter and just one of his creations.

I have always had the knowledge of God in my life, I have always been faithful. I just didn't understand what his love for us really meant. Now, I know.

I'm not the neatest, prettiest, skinniest, smartest or most crafty etc.

I do know that I am:

-crazy
-kind of neat but not too neat -so just the right balanced kind of neat;)
-I love my children and i try my hardest to be the best for them.
-I'm teaching them about the gospel and what's important in life.
-I try my best in everything. And that is GOOD ENOUGH.

I still don't have long hair, or a room of my own (thanks, Steve.) my house is not picture perfect and I haven't crafted ANYTHING since our move. And you know what? I'm as happy as a CLOWN. I'm glad that I finally realized that perfect is of the world. And I'm only here for a little bit.

Okay, that is all.

Jazmin